Though My Heart is Lonely

"I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!" -Psalm 27:13-14

I cried myself to sleep the other night, and it wasn't the first time. He's been gone for nearly 7 months now, but his absence doesn't get any easier.

And yet...I know God is just as much Lord today as He's been on all my days I've felt happy and full of hope. He is still Lord on these painful, confusing, fearful, and lonely days. His character, His promises to me, His love for me remain unchanged. The only thing that changed was that my husband was deployed and is unable to be at home right now. I keep reminding myself that my joy, my strength, and my hope do not depend on the happenings in my life. My joy, my strength, and my hope are all found in Christ, regardless of what is unfolding around me or what lies ahead.

"Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yeild no food,
and the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the LORD, is my strength;
he takes my feet like the deer's;
he makes me tread on my high places."
-Habakkuk 3:17-19

Though my husband is away fighting a war...though I am here alone and without him...though life continues to throw me curve balls and craziness...I will trust in Him.