Though My Heart is Lonely

"I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!" -Psalm 27:13-14

I cried myself to sleep the other night, and it wasn't the first time. He's been gone for nearly 7 months now, but his absence doesn't get any easier.

And yet...I know God is just as much Lord today as He's been on all my days I've felt happy and full of hope. He is still Lord on these painful, confusing, fearful, and lonely days. His character, His promises to me, His love for me remain unchanged. The only thing that changed was that my husband was deployed and is unable to be at home right now. I keep reminding myself that my joy, my strength, and my hope do not depend on the happenings in my life. My joy, my strength, and my hope are all found in Christ, regardless of what is unfolding around me or what lies ahead.

"Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yeild no food,
and the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the LORD, is my strength;
he takes my feet like the deer's;
he makes me tread on my high places."
-Habakkuk 3:17-19

Though my husband is away fighting a war...though I am here alone and without him...though life continues to throw me curve balls and craziness...I will trust in Him.

Winter Comes But Once a Year...

...and almost always stays past it's welcome! It's finally February, and February has many 'good' things in store! First, it marks that we are offically past the 'half way' point of the deployment. We are FINALLY on the 'downhill' run! :) Second, February is a SHORT month, meaning we'll be down to 5 months before we know it! And third, it's the LAST full month of winter!

We had a good dose of winter this week. We were hit with the 'storm of the year' including a blizzard producing -30 degree windchills and snow amounts ranging from 7-16 inches of snow across the state. Thankfully we only had 8.5 here, but it still made things a little crazy, especially with two little dogs!

I had to shuffle a path through the snow with my boots so that my dogs had a place to go where they wouldn't sink down in until they could no longer be seen in the drifts.


School was even cancelled for the day. Normally this would give me great reason for excitement...if only I had classes on Wednesdays! But at least the day ended on a beautiful note. God sure has His ways of showing His extraordinary power, and then reminding us of His beauty.